resah sang hati..

wujud kah cinta muka buku?

persoalan itu, huhu berat juga.

buaya darat je kot yg byk kt FB.

haha mmg x disangka.

tapi ramai yg dah jadi mangsanye.

mungkinkah itu takdir yg telah menemukan mereka?

terpulang kepada individu yg terlibat ..

sejauh mana keihklasan mereka?
mungkin hanya di bibir, ade ke yg mmg dlm hati yg tulus.
sukar ditafsir, sukar dijangka.

di mana letaknya nilai kesetiaan?

sebuah pengorbanan yang dipersiakan

pabila niat suci nya digomol oleh sang bedebah

si durjana hanya mempermainkan suci sekeping hati

hati yang mengharap kasih tulus

namun..

mengerti lah wahai hati.

dunia ini tak mungkin seindah mimpi

dunia ini sukar dimengerti

dunia ini hanya duniawi

kenapa cinta itu perit?

aku penat bercinta. mungkin sebab aku x layak bercinta. haha cita-cita pun aku x ada. hidup ku tanpa arah tuju. macam jadi zombie je rasenyer. aku nak kejar bahagia, tapi x tau di mana nak ku dapatkannya. mungkinkah aku dah tinggalkan kebahagiaanku yg sebenarnya ada pada dia. aku x tahu, aku x pasti. sukarnya nak buat pilihan, buat keputusan. sebenarnya dalam hidup ni, aku x mahu sakitkan hati sesiapa. tapi aku dah lukakan hati dia, dalam masa yang sama hati aku pun terluka. kenapa sukar untukku melupakannya. x tau apa lagi yang perlu ku buat untuk menyembuhkan luka itu. doa. ya itu mungkin ubatnya.

Cinta, mungkin kau x percaya

cinta dan hati x mungkin berpisah,

walau kau dah benci dia,

walau kau dah x tahan ditipu,

walau kau x tahan dikecewa,

walau kau x sanggup lagi terluka,

masih ada cinta lain,

cintai keluarga,

cintai sahabat,

cintai alam,

cinta terHebat,

cintai Tuhan yg menciptamu,

selagi kau mempunyai hati

selagi kau bergelar insan

jangan kau halang hati daripada cinta

itu haknya

jgn kau tidakkannya

santapan hati adalah kasih

jangan kau biar hatimu lapar

bukalah hatimu

biar ada insan yang bisa menyemai benih cinta

namun cinta tidak boleh dipaksa

cinta juga boleh berubah

kau harus redha

tika cinta itu bukan untukmu

dont talk to me~

tq

biar berlalu~

Terima kasih

Kerana memberiku peluang merasa kasihmu

Walau hanya sekejap jua

Akan kupatri semua memori

Mungkin bagi kau kisah itu tiada erti

Namun bagiku kenangan bersamamu

Itulah segala-galanya

Wahai hati

Marilah kita pergi

Usah ditangis pada yang x sudi

Kasih ini tiada yang peduli lagi

Hanya perit bergelumang duka

Air mata turunlah kau

Setelah bergenang dikelopak ini

Kau basahi pipiku untuk memadam memori lalu

Aku tega

Aku redha

what is L0vE?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:



"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's Love. Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

so what does love means to you?

For me right now, I think love is when I want the one I care to be happy. It doesn't matter if I need to sacrifice for his/ her happiness.

and one more thing that I understand about love is "If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it's yours. If it does not come back, it was never meant to be. " but it just really hard to accept it, when the One you love. Never loves you.

d justice system...

Restorative justice is an approach to justice that focuses on the needs of victims and offenders, instead of satisfying abstract legal principles or punishing the offender. Victims take an active role in the process, while offenders are encouraged to take responsibility for their actions, "to repair the harm they've done—by apologizing, returning stolen money, or community service". It is based on a theory of justice that considers crime and wrongdoing to be an offense against an individual or community rather than the state. It focuses less on punishment and more to repair the damage and ensure avoidance in future.

Retributive justice is a theory of justice that considers that punishment, if proportionate, is a morally acceptable response to crime, with an eye to the satisfaction and psychological benefits it can bestow to the aggrieved party, its intimates and society. "Let the punishment fit the crime" is the principle that the severity of penalty for a misdeed or wrongdoing should be reasonable and proportionate to the severity of the infraction.

D attraction principle checklist*

Here I wanna share the principle that should be followed by any girls to keep warm their relationship.

1) when he doesn't give time, he get no DATE.

-well a girl shouldn't be waiting for a guy to confirm their date. That will obviously keeping girls at a bay. Stop letting him disappoint you. Insist him to confirm any date one day earlier. No more last minute plan, that will cost you to cancel other plans. well I bet you don't like it to be that way. So this is the way, when he insist to confirmed the time later, just let him know that you might be not available later.

2) when he starts getting little distance from you, u should ALTER the routine

-if you date on weekend, maybe can change to weekdays. or when u are married, maybe u could spend your weekend to see friends or family. This will makes him missing you and when u come back, u will get him the you want.

~time to sleep~

Baby baby ohh~ hihi nakal erk

hihi my sis kate x suke panggil BF baby, or husband pgil baby..x sesuai. coz lelaki, a guy kalu pgil baby cam lemau jer..x nampak kegagahan, ketegasan nyer. well, sy x kesah. tapi macam nak kesah gak. hehe coz kadang2x rase cam nak manjekan dia. so, mungkin kadang2x okay jugak kot.

smalam time menduakan si dia, bley plak dia mesej. huhu naseb bek dia call time dah selepas sesi mencuranginya..jgn la kasi kantoi. terpakse mem'make Up ' story bila dia cuba menyoal selidik diriku. mungkin salahku, tapi jgn salahkan ku pleasse.

sikit cuak bile kena interrogate. nasib bek lie detector bisa kupatahkan keberkesanannyer. jahat lah aku ni. sory bby. nak wat cane dia buzy sgt. Ingat dah lupekat kite nih. ngeee...

akhir kate, hopefully aku dpt jadi insan yg setia, x nakal2x lagi.

THe THruth~ the beginning

Usually when u start a relationship with a guy, they might start saying sweet stuff. They may give compliment about you appearance and saying how much they like you.like "you look pretty, your eyes are so mesmerize".

So do you really find it's so sweet,when a guy says things like ‘I’ve never liked a girl so much after only a few dates’ or he texts you saying he misses you. JUST SO YOU KNOW here is the reality, when you barely know each other, guys doesn’t really mean it. Yes, he feels something, but it is not “missing you” that he’s feeling. He just want to know how you react on that, do u really likes him. His main GOAL is to see how much do you INTERESTED.

If you say something like ‘oh my god really? I really like you too!’ and get all excited, then he knows you’re really into him.

BUT If you get really freaked-out and look at him like he’s a stalker, he’ll know that he’s gonna have to work a little harder to win you over.

In the beginning, the guy really just wants to make you like him. So him texting you sweet things and saying all that mushy stuff and being really attentive is just his way of hooking you in and it’s not really him expressing his feelings.

am scared~

In a relationship, there should be the giver and recipient. But it should be mutualism. relationship that could be enjoyed by both sides, the symbiosis.
....When I love the person in my relationship, I never have the intention to hurt them. I don't dare to makes they feel terrible. But in this ONE, I just cannot tolerate this one wrong treatment he has given to me. just not anymore. I must stop this.

I seriously can't accept it when he is just ignored my message without feeling guilty. I was trying to just forget it when he did that. But not anymore. I think it is possible that he never realise that I was being hurtful by his 'silent treatment'. So, Here I am taking the best solution that I can think. I had to tell him how I hate it. I hope he could accept and understand what I was trying to tell him. In the mean time, I felt guilty of doing this. HUUh I know it is hard for me to tell the truth that could makes him feel annoyed with me. I was not trying to sabotaging or controlling his life. I am just fighting to save our relationship. Hopefully he will understand. and one more thing I am scared of losing him. Thats the truth.

huuh I think Its really hard to keep a real relationship, especially for myself whom has not much experience. well what I have figured is that sometimes we just need to fight for our right. No mercy..yeahh



believe me please >0<

am I suffering bipolar disorder?

being an adult makes me learn more about these stressful life. and it makes me become rude. I dunno, maybe I ve just lost respect to person, people. Its bcoz Ive seen really annoying hypocrite selfish attitudes. They were eating all my sanity, making me insane, hating those people, feeling disgusted with them. i don't really enjoy being rude but I fells like there is the need to become rebellious. Sometimes I simply do something that I, me myself realise is stupid and shouldnt be done. But i just do it. I dunno, I just loose control.


I wish I could be the sweet little girl. But I just cant be that anymore. How hurtful it is. Becoz I think there is no turning back. Life is becoming miserable. and I know its my choice, my decision, my fault if it is. I can never blame others on these.

satu hari..

hahha..cuti sehari yg full. macam ni baru lah dikatakan "live ur life to the fullest"... semalam wesak day, aku telah bgun lambat dan tidor lambat. pg lepak ngn bf n lunch. pastu balik kg anta barang. next g lepak port Klang ngn my beloved sisters. pastu jumpe kawan ku sorang yg dah lame nak jumpe tapi x terjumpa..haha sempat la berborak jap 1 jam..huhu walaupun byk lagi nak share story, x pelah next time plak. finally jumpe member lagi sorang ni. gi makan n tgk wayang.

hmm syok gak kuar ngn member yg last tu. aku telah tgk citer Kongsi akhirnya, ngn dia. aku cam x der idea sket nak borak ngn dia ni. ntah sebab ape yer...gilelah, dia ni suka sgt usha aku sambil senyum..ade sikit cuak la aku rase. n response aku plak; aku gelak je lah. sket pelik n klaka la, awat dia ni suke sgt senyum kat aku. time tgk wayang pun bila pandang aku mmg dia senyum lah. ha, satu mende lagi dia de beli gula2x mase makan kt kdai nasi kandar bfore tgk wayang. LOL asyik2x bagi aku gula2x..hihi nampak sweet kot, tapi aku rase cam klaka jer. macam aku ni budak2x plak nak bagi gula2x. tapi x kesah la, sedap ape gula2x dia bagi perisa jambu batu@ guava lagi..

ape ye lagi nak citer, ahh actually waktu 1st time jumpe dia,aku rase si dia ni hensem tau. slalunye aku kalau jumpe budak hensem ni, aku wat poyo n kerek je. sebab x suka la nak tunjuk kt si hensem tu yg aku cam sket admire kat wajah dia tu..haha, tapi oleh kerana dia tetibe cam rajin nak borak ngn aku. so aku ape lagi, layan lah. haha..jgn dilepaskan peluang yg ade. kahkah jahat la aku ni.hihi rase nak jatuh cinta plak. melampau bf yg kusayang lagi sorang nak campak mane? hua2x sape suh bf aku bikin hangat jer, kat fb promote diri kate single..mane minyak aku x menggelegak. tapi...dlm hati aku tetap gak sayang dia n hopefully dia syg aku gaks. kalu x, aku cari spare part dulu lah hahaha..

mlm tadi aku balik dah kul 1, sekali tmpat parking dah kena amik ngn org lain plak. aku ngn selamba park kt tempat yg ade sign no parking kalu x kena clamp. LOL sah2x la pagi ni aku turun kete ku da pakai rantai baek punye. aku rase cam karma plak. yela aku dah wat jahat semalam..g kuar ngn member tu, 1 aku dah x loyal kat bf. 2 aku mungkin cam bagi harapan yg palsu kt si hensem tu. hua2x..nasib la badan. aku just go on with the flow. jer malas nak menongkah arus, bagai la.. humm bagi aku kalau de jodoh akan bertemu jua n disatukan. kalau x pun atleast aku sempat la berkenalan dgn org2x ni kan.

ape2x pun senyum lah selagi boleh rase bahagia..

sendiri di atas bumi.

Dian Sastro:
disaat waktu berhenti...kosong
dimensi membutakan mata,memekakkan telinga
lalu diri menjadi hampa
saat paradigma dunia tak lagi digunakan untuk menerka*
sadarku akan hadirmu,mematahkan sendi2 yang biasanya tegak berdiri

Yassin:
ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)

Malique:
merenungi luar jendela,mengagumi kebesaran yang Maha Esa
ku menilai kehidupan dari sudut berbeza
tak memadai hanya kecapi rasa selesa
maukan harta yang mampu beli 1 semesta
berpesta ke pagi botol bergelimpangan
kekasih muda bukan takat berpegang tangan
harta dan jamuan nafsu tidak berkekalan
bila menjelang tua bukan itu jadi bekalan
dan jangan puisi ini disalah tafsir pula
bukan berkhutbah cuma betuli diri jua
ingin hidup sempurna aset nilai berjuta,
saling tukar wanita,senyum dan mati tua
bakat dikurnia jangan disalah guna
jangan kufur nikmat yang diberi percuma
guna kelebihan untuk hikmah bersama
jagalah nama hidup penuh pementasan dan drama
ada berisi ada yang kurus,ada melencong ada yang lurus bukan semuanya tulus
ada sempuna ada kurang upaya ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya
sebesar rumah bermula dengan sekecil bata,boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata
ucaplah alhamdulillah bukannya sukar, kerna semua nak kaya atau besar
tetap Allahuakbar!!!


Joe Flizzow:
jadikanlah ku tentera Fisabilillah yang tertera di kalimah harap memanduilah
entah apabila persimpangan tiba,hidup penuh rintangan harus kuhadapinya
harapku tidak terlupa diri bila gembira,dan cuma mula mencari kau disaat hiba
ku cuma manusia penuh dengan kesilapan tapi bisa membezakan cahaya dan kegelapan
tabah bila dihalangan duri onak dan cobaan
teguh bila dicobakan keruh kuasa dan perempuan
sentiasa legar diminda,dikejar dan dipinta dari zaman bermula hingga ke akhirnya
ku mengerti siapa ku tanpamu disisi dan apa guna posesi juga posisi
sementara ini cuma hanya puisi,nukilan tulisan dan bisikan isi hati
mencari keterangan,menjiwai peranan menepati pesanan janji juga saranan
alhamdulillah atas kurniaan rezeki,moga tidak terleka dalam perjalanan ini

Ahli Fiqir:
aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati,mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi
aku yang melihat alam meliputi wujud menyertai lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati
aku hakiki,aku mengerti segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi
gunanya tiada fantasi, pelik dan benar,qada' dan qadar kau berilah ku kekuatan
agar dapat ku hindarkan segala kesesatan
usah kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,
aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui
moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku,semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri
moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuhi,moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang
lidah setajam pisau, ku tidak akan risau dengan cabaran sepanjang perjalanan
ku pasrah ku akur 7,8,6 Alhamdulillah Syukur...

Dian Sastro:
sujudku pun takkan memuaskan inginku
'tuk hanturkan* sembah sedalam kalbu
adapun kusembahkan syukur padamu ya Allah
untuk nama,harta dan keluarga yang mencinta
dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini tertempa
alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
yang membuat hamba mengerti lebih baik makna diri
semua lebih berarti akan mudah dihayati
Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah....

aktiviti malam~

kul 12 malam baru aku sampai depan pagar apartment. pastu baru teringat turn aku parking luar dowh. menapak le aku balik umah. huh exercise le tgh malam nmpak gayanye..

actually, aku baru balik pusing-pusing, sambil menyesatkan diri dari Kelana jaya balik Bandar Baru Bangi. rindulah drive memalam sesorang. layan gila, boleh pecut sambil cilok2x..haha memang x layak jadi pemandu yang berhemah. kalau kau jadi pemandu berhampiran kete aku, mesti kau kutuk tahap cipan lah. ade ke patut tetibe jer men masuk simpang. X patut x patut..tapi nak wat cane aku baru terperasan aku patut masuk simpang tu. so men selamba macam jalan tu aku yg punya lah aku cilok.

sebelum aku bergerak balik memecut kete tu, aku der meeting ngan sorang mamat nih. bukan mesyuarat yg rasmi tu lah. just g beborak jer pun. hak2x panggil mamat, senior ni tua 10 tahun dari aku. camne lah org x hilang respek kat aku. teruk lah aku ni. dia ni lah yg cam x caye aku ni satu sekolah ngn sekolah yg dia grad dulu. konon sekolah terbaek punye lah so produk2x nyer mestilah power gila. cam aku nih x sesuai la. kah2x ape de kesah. aku dah selamat pun graduasi dari sekolah tu selepas 5 tahun. aku serius x kesah ape pandangan org ttg aku la ni. sebab ape? sebab aku agak sudah hilang respek sebenarnya dengan golongan yang dianggap profesional, cendekiawan yg kononnya bagus sangat ni lah.

aku borak pe ye ngn mamat ni tadi? oh pasal insurans. wey boleh kaya, means boleh idup gak yer jadi agen insurans nih. dia dok citer la kat aku pentingnya memiliki insurans di kala muda n tak berpenyakit ni. ala sume org paham2x la..pastu dia borak pasal kad kredit la. camne dia boleh jadi mangsa kad kredit n sekarang x der satu pun lagi. haha. gila lame dengar dia bersyarah. penat gak aku. la tu kedai dah tutup, kami duk jer tepi tembok. borak2x sampai satu jam setengah kot. aku pun x perasan lame gila..





time tu aku rase malas gak nak dengar dah. nak angkat kaki jer rase. tapi ntah cane lah aku ni memang susah sket nak tolak bila orang mula syok sendiri bercerita ni. hurm layan je la. atleast aku pun dpt la knowledge. n satu lagi bcoz aku mmg selalu tertarik ngn lelaki yang pandai cerita2x ni..haha dah aku bukan pandai nak berborak sangat. so aku jadi tukang dengar je lah.

ceng gitu lah citernye..hurm nak tido lah mate aku ni dah sakit dah..hehe sian mata aku. nak rehat gaks..

belive it, there's gotta be somebody for you~

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

keretapiku..

setelah menunggu lama, akhirnya keretapiku sampai juga.
ketika ia tiba, aku semacam pasti ianya memang keretapi yang kutunggu selama ini.
aku terus menaikinya, meninggalkan bagasi ku di landasan.

aku seakan hanyut di dalamnya.
ia sungguh indah, memberikan sinar bahagia buatku.
namun, ia tidak kekal.
sesekali ada ribut melanda.
membuat aku takut, sangsi dengan kemampuan keretapi ini untuk membawa aku ke destinasiku..
ya, baru kuingat bahawa aku telah terlupa..lupa samada keretapi ini menuju ke arah destinasi yang aku ingin tuju. mungkinkah aku telah tersalah keretapi?
aku takut. aku keliru.
dimana aku boleh bertanya?
pada siapa harus kusoal?
wahai keretapi, kemana kau bawaku pergi?
Tolong beri jawapan yang pasti.
Tolonglah, aku tidak mahu sesat lagi.
Sebenarnya soalan itu hanya bermain di benak fikiranku.
Kerna aku x cukup berani untuk melontarkan soalan itu.
Mungkin, kerna aku x sanggup terima kenyataan jika keretapi ini telah membawaku ke arah yang lain.
aku x mahu keluar dari keretapi ini.
aku merasa gembira disini. tapi, gembira saja cukupkah?
bagaimana dengan destinasi yang kutuju.
wahai keretapi, tolonglah aku.
jangan biar aku terus keliru.
jangan biar aku terus dikaburi dengan kegembiraan yang palsu.
kiranya destinasimu itu bukan arah yang kutuju.
Tolonglah berhenti, agar bisa aku kembali ke landasan untuk menaiki keretapiku yang sepatutnya..
tolong beri jawapan wahai keretapiku.
jangan kau butakan mataku dengan kebahagian yang palsu ini.
aku x mahu kecewa lagi.

stress 110xs

aiyoooo...writing.
huh aku rase aku nye tulisan cam sampah. benci kat diri sendiri..
okay skrg da pressure, jadi rase cam nak giler sudah..hua2x...

manisnya gula, pahitnya duka~

A: Bila ada masa indah, ada juga masa duka. betulkah?
B: Itukan roda kehidupan, lumrah dunia. kata org kalau x der sedih kita x kan hargai bahagia.
A: Tapi kadangkala kesulitan itu seperti sengsara yang x mampu tertanggung.
B: Mungkin sebab kau x kongsikannya.
A: Siapalah yg suka dengar masalah org lain. Bukan seronok pun. x pasal2x dapat tohmahan daripada org lain pula nanti.
B: X semestinya kongsi dengan manusia.
A: Habistu? x kan nak cerita kat kucing.
B: Cerita pada tuhan, ALLAH. kau percaya pada ALLAH kan? minta lah tenangkan hati kau. Insya-Allah. semua masalah ada penyelesaian.
A: Aku percaya pada ALLAH. Tapi aku ni dah sesat, banyak buat dosa. layak ke aku nak minta tolong dari-NYA. Nak mengadu pada-NYA.Aku benci diri aku sendiri.
B: Janganlah macam tu. Semua orang ada buat salah. Tuhan tu Maha Penyayang. Kau kembalilah pada-NYA.
A: Boleh ke?
B: Mesti lah boleh. Asalkan kau sendiri nak berubah. Nak selesaikan semua ni.
A:


Hidup ini masih perlu diteruskan. Walaupun kini memang dunia akhir zaman. Namun x bermaksud kau boleh mengakhirinya sesuka hati. Yang berhak ke atas nyawa kau hanyalah Yang Maha Esa, ALLAH.

Ya ALLAH, ampunkan aku.
Berikanlah aku kekuatan,
Berikanlah aku petunjuk...

Endless ..

I must end it. There's no hope left. I'll be at peace. No one had anything to do with this. My decision totally.
Suicide note.
~~ Freddie Prinze, comedian, d. January 29, 1977

Single female, age 21

My dearest Andrew,

It seems as if I have been spending all my life apologizing to you for things that happened whether they were my fault or not.

I am enclosing your pin because I want you to think of what you took from me every time you see it.

I don't want you to think I would kill myself over you because you're not worth any emotion at all. It is what you cost me that hurts and nothing can replace it.

Single male, age 51

Sunday 4:45 PM. Here goes

To who it may concern

Though I am about to kick the bucket I am as happy as ever. I am tired of this life so am going over to see the other side.

Good luck to all.

Benjamin P.



its my fault, i'm the big loser..

will u marry me~

kalu nak kawen sempoi style????
gilakah.

lepas bace entri bout awek chuck taylor tu, seyes buat aku realise...'kenape kene ikut tradisi thingy?? buat kenduri besar sume tu. perlu ker? better b realistic. hidup nih sekali jer pun. n aku byk wat salah. but in the end nobody should judge me.. we learned from our mistakes..

sometimes I wish I could diminish from this hypocrite world.

Kia Services @ Bdr baru bangi, seksyen 10 + kedai tyre hankook @ seksyen 15

ini keteku..

Last weekend, aku g service keretaku kat tmpat nih. pepagi laie aku dah pergi bcoz byk mende dah plan nak buat aritu..before ni slalu servis kt hometown ku jer kat kuale slgor n pernah sekali kt setapak.



huh, nasib bek x ramai org lagi time aku smpai, ade 3 kete jer tgh servis. pastu terus turn kete aku. encik pakcik yg serve aku tu pun explain ler bape dia punye charge nak tukar lubricant fuel n all, beserta choices yg ade. samade nak fully synthetic or yg lagi satu yg murah sket tu..aku pun pilih je lah fully synthetic nyer synthium, fuh 200+ tu, dlu aku buat kat setapak baru 180-190 kott..dah naik harge ka..pastu labor kat situ rm60, slalu aku wat kt kg ku rm50 jer. hurmm mahal lah kt kdai pakcik nih.

haa..pakcik tu de lah ckp kalu ade ape2x problem lain..problem mmg byk. tapi ntah aku rase cm x der kaitan sgt ngn servis dia kan..so aku x de lah kate pape. tapi kwn aku yg dok teman ni rajin plak nak ckp kt pakcik tu, aircond kete aku x sejuk. lepas di cek oleh staff kat ctu, pakcik tu kate bcoz x servis..dia kate kalu nak servis kene tgal sehari dua.. LOL gila lame. x mahu aku, caj nyer pun bukan main mahal 2 3 rat katenyer..bakrupt ler aku..

akhirnye siap gak la kete ku diservis, yessza sukenyer hatiku kete tersyg dah diservis..wlaupun hehehe duit le melayang. seterusnya proceed ke next station, nak tukar tayar.

pagi tu aku da sms sorg mechanic kt kdai tyr hankook tu, si boy. aku igt dia kate dia x keje..sampai2x ade plak dia, syok juga boley jumpe dia. hua2x gatal la pulak aku nih.

actually tayar kete aku mmg dah botak yg 2 depan tu. blkg plak satu tu asyik kuar jer angin dia...aku pun explain lah kat mamat tu. x bley blah betol la dia ni dgr citer aku ke x ntah, malu aku..hehe..actually dia dah kate kat aku dlu hrga tyr rm135 sebiji ntuk 60/14. huh before ni aku gune 65 punyer. so aku pun tanye la okay ker kalu tukar 60 nih kan, yela aku ni sguh cetek pengetahuan pasal kesihatan kete ni..hurm aku pun belasah je lah, okay tukar 4 biji plezz.hikhik..duitnyer bley tahan la nk membayar nyer..risau gak aku kalu tyar ni x tahan gak ker, bcoz aku baru jer tukar tyr depan tu bulan 9 thun lepas. baru 4 bulan dah botak..giler lah..

pastu der staf lain kat situ kate x per, boley percaya ckp enchek mechanic, boy tu..x ley blahh, dia kate..boy x tipu pempuan..cehh hampass, habistu kalu lelaki ker, pondan ker boleh la tipu yerk..ape2x la diorang nih. x per la, aku ttp meng observe setiap kje yg dibuat kat kete aku tuh. tgla mereka g cabut kuar tyre, then si boy bwa tyre baru ..oh silverstone punye brand lorr, before ni aku gune goodyear..nk yg murah, hambek je lah..ade sticker kt tyre, okay check.< dah kene sound ngn org cek sticker ade ke x kt tepi tyre, huhu>..then balancig, alingment sume aku tgk lah..sesambil tu sempat jer main mate @ pandang2x ngn si boy < hua2x aku gelakkan diriku sendiri dlm hati>,,, mane taknyer, dia sambil sibuk keje tu, sempat lagi sms aku..wlaupun aku de tepi mate..bukan depan mate ahakss..

yezza akhirnya siap sudah, tgal saat yg x best iaitu kene byr, okay melayang lagi duitku 500++ ..hihi sebelum blah, sempat lagi aku lmbai si boy, gilerlah..ceh, alrite per kalu der bf mechanic sorang, hehe BF wif benefit..fuhh best giler drive after servis n tukar tyre, stereng pun dah x goyang bile tkan minyak smpai 100++km/hour..puas hati lah.

seterusnye sesi servis diri la pulak, nak kene isi perut gak..asyik kete jer diservis..diri sendiri mane bley diabaikan pula kan..hehe satu lagi story time n d way nak g makan. si pakcik kedai servis kete call aku, aku igt ade tertggal brg jer..rupe2x nyer nak minta nu. phone kwn ku itu..wakaka..pakcik nih biar bet, nak kwn ngn dia..LOrgh igt2x la sket kt anak bini kt umah..gtal sguh..nmpaknyer insyaallah x smpai ler aku kek kedai pakcik tu lagi. haha kalu aku pegi lagi pun..pakcik gak yg malu ngn saye karang..mane x nyer dah kene reject ..

begitulah cereta. di hari sbtu lalu..

Steamboat @ red wok seksyen 7 bangi

dgr khabar makan steamboat kat situ sgt best..so aku pun teringin lah nak cube.
make pergilah aku ke sane. not bad, ramai btul org even hari biasa, weekdays ni.
sorang rm25. Kalu steamboat + sizzling rm30.

aku pun g lah memulakan operasi mengisi perut bersama ngn best fren ku cik lya. wah macam2x juga la mkanan utk steambot tu..tauhu, seafood, sayur, mushroom, mee n all. air ade orange n air kosong jer. dessert nye buah tembikai n oren n ade aiskrim jer. menu lain adelah nasi grg, mee grg, popiah, ketam masak pe tah ..

siap ade sign kalu ade waste > 100g kena byr rm10. so kami pun mkn ape yg larat jer, n berusahe menghabiskannyer...haha susah tu..

wokey la last skali mkn la aiskrim 2 sudu. Full giler x larat..kesimpulannyer, nak mkn style buffet ceni reramai la best. n aku x larat la nak mkn byk..x mo lah mkn ceni kat sini lagi, x sesuai ntuk aku.

actually aku pernah makan time lunch ala carte nasi putih ngn lauk2x.. sedap lah, harga pun boleh tahan la..

sedang melarikan diri..

hihi..tgh berlari ni, huh nasib bek tak tercungap-cungap..tapi kena hati2x gak, takut tertangkap.


...sebenarnye aku ni sorang yg susah nak menunjukkan empathy. aku cam x pandai le nak wat cane bile org sedey or cite ttg kesedihan mereka nih. kene ke aku turut bersedey? ntah le..kadang2x aku gelak jer. bukan sebab aku nak gelakkan org tu pun..cume bile dgr citer mereka aku rase ..wow, mcm2x mende bley berlaku dlm hidup ni..hmm hidup ni penuh cabaran tul la..

back to story melarikan diri ni..every sms aku x bace, time nak delete pun aku pejam mate..ahaks takut terbace. x sanggup ghasenyer..hehe, aku da blacklisted kan no. tu kt hp aku. yeah hopefully dia x cari aku lagi..yeppi. kebebasan come back to mummy!!

Ungu Andai Ku Tahu Lyrics- Andai Ku Tahu Ungu Senikata

mengapelah sume ini terjadi..

aku siyesly rase fed up jer ngn sume ni..walaupun aku tahu ni sume cobaan daripda ALLAH. tapi rase mende ni sguh menensenkan diri lorh, x larat lagi...Ya ALLAH tlg lah ringankan bebanan ini n tabahkan lah hatiku menghadapi semua ini..tunjukkanlah kepadaku cara yang terbaik..pandulah hati ini.

new yeAR 2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

semestinya dah jadi rutin, org suke kaitkan thun baru dgn azam, resolusi, misi, visi..sume tu lah. bagi aku yg tgh melayang2x lagi ni..hopefully aku dpt kje yg stabil. bosan le cam skang ni, kontrak dah tu kje bosan giler. mmg x kene jiwa je rasenyer.

mlm new year, aku x d g sambut kt luar pun..aku tdo ngn lena jer. siang dah penat giler, da le rase pening + pitam lagi. Tapi ptg tu smpat gak aku tanye kat budk D, nak lepak mane konon nak join la..boley die ajak g clubbing, siap pesan pakai seksi..manyak sodapp aku nak layan dia..lelaki sume cam hampess. kesudahannya aku pun menidurkan diriku dgn enaknye..layan mimpi hua2x..lagi baek + indah jer.

mlm sebelum new yr aku lepak ngn bf..hua2x suke atiku la nk pgl dia bf, even dia x aggp aku gf pun.asal aku bahagia. wakaka..persoalannya bahagia ke aku?? toing2x..ape2x je lah. setakat ni happy j la juga. siang tu sorang encik ajak kua tgk muvie on new yrs eve.aku pun siang2x da habak x bleycoz blik kg. wlupun bley j sbnrnye kalu mau..tapi cam mls jer rasenye. igt dah habis cite, tapi bile dia ade sebut 'saje nak ngusik'..what d #&*..aku rase cam. brade, ooh come on la, igt aku ni ape bdak2x nak men usik2x plak.cam la aku terhegeh2x nak d'ajak date...seriusly aku x suke org yg berpendapat begitu..aku cm bengang + berapi sket, dah le aku mmg tgh emo terlebey ni. tapi aku mls nk tunjuk ke x puasan hati ni..buat2x cool sudah.

next story, di pagi thun baru. bgun2x jer. dapat call dari budak 'FB'. aku sebenarnye x sure nak jwb ker pgilan budak yg meluat ni..last2x aku agkat j la..tapi panas le telinga aku nak dgarcerite dia yg melalut. dia cite kat aku yg dia tgk lalok mase ckp ngn aku tu bcoz mlm nw yr tadi, dia amik ice + arak. gile btol la mamat nih. pastu sibuk plak dok tanye azam thun baru aku ape. aku mls nak ckp, kate je x de. konon aku nak berbasi ckp la ni, tnye die punye azam..mak oihh ade ke azam nak jadi jahat, nak wat sume mnde jahat nak menipu, nak rogol org, nak bunuh org..eiii gila betol. pastu kate thun depan nye azam baru nak jadi baik. bongok punye manusia. aku pun kate la abis kalu ko mati thun ni x sempat la nak capai azam nxt yr tu.. hmm pastu byk la dia merepek lagi cite kat aku pasal muvie 'aku masih dara', 'gullivers travel'..aku dengar j la. walaupun x berminat langsung. pastu narnia plak nak cite, aku pun ckp le nak mandi pe sume kan..mls nak dgr. mamat ni gila lah bengong, slpas aku bersusah pyah pinjamkan telinga dgr ckp melalut dia tu, dia kate aku ni psyc..hangin gila aku.
x patut betoi..sedap je dia kutuk n gelak kan aku..sakit gila hati aku time tuh. da tu nak say bye pun susah, sibuk plak nak kiss. mangkuk betol. sempat lagi promote yg dia punye kiss baek punye bley kasi lentok minah mane yg malang sguh tu..dia kate nanti nak call blik, aku kate j hari lain lah..pastu aku terus end j call.

huhu aku saje je..cerita kisah ku yg tuut n tettt..kesimpulannye, korang punye azam korang usaha la utk capainyer, tapi ape2x pun just enjoy the show la kan..x yah nak stress2x sgt. org kt sekeliling kita ni mcm2x jenis, ade yg suke tgk kite bahagia, ade yg suke tgk kite merane..kadang2x kan walaupun niat kita nak tlg org, nti dia plak susahkan kite. mcm melepaskan anjing tersepit tu lah..gamaknyer..tapi nak wat cane. yg penting kita ingat ALLAH itu ada, kalu kita buat baik pasti dibalas baik.